
Gwen has been saying astonishing things to me lately. It still surprises me that she has a thought of her own that didn't originate with me. She is growing up after all... it shouldn't surprise me so.
Recently she got in trouble for something and we put her in her room. She proceeded to throw a huge fit and when I went in there again she was totally naked and had peed on her bed out of spite. Let's just say I wasn't impressed. After I yelled "What are you doing!?" I tried to calm myself down by sitting on the bed. She came over and wanted to be held. Then she looked at me through her tears and said "sometimes mom, you just have to clean the sheets." I immediately burst into tears. I was so frustrated and amused at the same time that's the only reaction I had. I've decided I'm going to paint that quote somewhere, because it's so true... sometimes you just have to clean the sheets. Sometimes you act like a wild lunatic and do things you regret and "sometimes you just have to clean the sheets" and move on!
When Gwen prays she doesn't say "please heal so and so, or please heal me Lord". She says "thank you for healing me" as if it has already happened. This has challenged me to pray with a heart that expects good to come out of any situation.
The other day Gwen said "I want to die and go to Jesus." I told her, "well, being with Jesus would be great, but if you did die I would miss you very much." Lord, help me be that eager about going to see you! Maybe this is a glimpse of why Jesus said you have to be like a child. They aren't too tied to this earth.
Gwen has settled down a bit now and goes to bed without giant fits and is remarkably independent. She is thoughtful and remembers things very well and is very funny. She can now make the letters "G" and "W" in our recent quest to write her name. She also has learned "Silent Night" this year. She is a treasure to me and I'm so glad God entrusted her to me for this short while.